A New Normal
One of the hardest things about adjusting here is getting used to a new sort of normal. I have yet to establish a routine, and that frightens me because I am ready to feel comfortable and settled. Being in flux for too long takes a toll on the mind and body. There are a few things that I’m interested participating, such as Bikemore, November Project, and going out more to other people’s events. I’m ready to start branching out, but before I can do that I have to first settle myself physically, mentally, and emotionally.
I spent the majority of this weekend attempting to find that balance between adulthood and childhood. Saturday was spent at IKEA and Home Depot in order to finally organize all the kitchen appliances and setup a cutting board kitchen island, as well as build a galvanized iron wall shell for my bedroom. Sunday was spent hanging out with my mom who brought me to church at Our Lady of the Angels Catholic Community in a retirement center, to a Carmax in Laurel to appraise her car, and then to Anne Arundel Mills Mall to watch the less than stellar Point Blank movie.
It’s weird coming back home and feeling hopelessly lost as I try to figure my shit out, while still feeling like a small child riding shotgun with my mom as we careened our way through I-695, I-95, I-83, MD-100, and I-195.
There’s definitely a balance to be struck here, and Baltimore shall be my teacher.